This past month has been very stressful! Change in semesters at school, conferences, grades, still adjusting to everything on my own, YoungLife starting back up, job searching for next year, etc., etc. I was veeerrryyyyy sick for about a week and a half, and am finally feeling better. It literally drained me on top of the everyday stuff already.
Last weekend, I went home for Leadership Weekend at Oglebay. This was my first YoungLife event last year, and I was so excited to see everyone from home. I got to see 6 kids from the school I led at at home, and all the leaders from home! It was nice to be around friends for at least part of the weekend. I am still adjusting to how things run in Charleston and getting to know everyone. On the one night, I was by myself looking for something in my bags, and another one of the girls came in and asked me how I was. (She is also new to the area.) After a long day, I easily just poured myself out. She was so caring and sweet to me. I really needed her support, and it meant a lot to me. She listened to my concerns, and shared that she had felt the same way most of the time. It was great to know I wasn't alone. She was encouraging in that we had to keep pressing on and remember why we were involved in the first place. I am so happy to finally have met someone to count on down here.
Still job searching. Applying for some jobs, but there's nothing really available right now. I just keep praying that God will show me where He wants me to be. The hardest part is just leaving it in God's hands, but I am trying to put all my trust in Him each day. I am still doing the OWNit365 plan with my home church, where we are reading the Bible in a year. It has been much more exciting than I first thought.
I hope to start leading for YoungLife or WyldLife this semester. It is hard as I am unsure if I will still be here next year. I am scared of becoming attached to the kids again, and having to leave after a semester like last fall. I am definitely going to be involved though, but am still deciding where. I'm praying for guidance to put me where I can best serve.
The past couple months, I have really been analyzing how I have been living, especially in the last year or so. While I can never remember a time I wasn't a Christian, I don't think I necessarily lived how I should have. I have always followed Christ, but am now striving with walk WITH Him. I was the "good" girl among most of my friends, so when I did mess up, it wasn't a "big deal." I did things society considers normal and "not that bad." However, if I am going to live a life that is supposed to be representing Christ, I cannot accept the worldy view of what is right and wrong. I am becoming more conscious of how I act. While I am nowhere near where I want to be, and feel like I am taking baby steps, I am striving to walk with Christ instead of just following Him and living my life like everyone else. I should live one life and be proud of it.
